I spent so long trying to find you,
Now I couldn’t live my life without you there;
This life has been a journey,
Not much love, and not much care.
For so many years I wore a broken heart on my sleeve, as my lonely insecurities turned my dreams into rust;
Endless nights spent crying in silence, as I had lost my ability to trust.
I locked my heart away, as I prepared myself for an entire lifetime on my own;
I guess part of you can die, after spending so many birthdays and Christmases alone.
I spent so many years listening to others spin me yet another lie;
But once they had finished using me, they just packed up and left, without so much as a goodbye.
I will confess I once contemplated leaving this world, with a knife in my hand I was ready to surrender to the night;
But instead I swapped that blade for this pen, and started creating my very first poetry book, “Destiny to Write”.
How did I ever live without you?
I guess I didn’t, I was just stumbling through each day like the walking dead;
Hours spent staring at my incomplete reflection, as my nights were spent tossing and turning in my incomplete bed.
After so many years of praying for an absolution heaven sent me an angel,
So someone in the skies must have heard me calling;
My fate had put me in the right place at the right time, to catch a star which was falling.
My heart started to beat, as a love shone so bright I thought I was going to self combust;
My angel taught me how to fly,
And she taught me how to trust.
BARRY MOWLES ©2012
“Love is giving someone the power to destroy you, but trusting them not to.”